I wander all night in my vision,

Stepping with light feet . . . . swiftly and noiselessly

        stepping and stopping,

Bending with open eyes over the shut eyes of sleepers;

Wandering and confused . . . . lost to myself . . . .

        ill-assorted . . . . contradictory,

Pausing and gazing and bending and stopping.

How solemn they look there, stretched and still;

How quiet they breathe, the little children in their cradles.

The wretched features of ennuyees, the white features of

        corpses, the livid faces of drunkards, the sick-gray faces

        of onanists,

The gashed bodies on battlefields, the insane in their strong-doored

        rooms, the sacred idiots,

The newborn emerging from gates and the dying emerging

        from gates,

The night pervades them and enfolds them.

The married couple sleep calmly in their bed, he with his

        palm on the hip of the wife, and she with her palm on

        the hip of the husband,

The sisters sleep lovingly side by side in their bed,

The men sleep lovingly side by side in theirs,

And the mother sleeps with her little child carefully

        wrapped.

The blind sleep, and the deaf and dumb sleep,

The prisoner sleeps well in the prison . . . . the runaway

        son sleeps,

The murderer that is to be hung next day . . . . how does

        he sleep?

And the murdered person . . . . how does he sleep?

The female that loves unrequited sleeps,

And the male that loves unrequited sleeps;

The head of the moneymaker that plotted all day sleeps,

And the enraged and treacherous dispositions sleep.

I stand with drooping eyes by the worstsuffering and

        restless,

I pass my hands soothingly to and fro a few inches from them;

The restless sink in their beds . . . . they fitfully sleep.

The earth recedes from me into the night,

I saw that it was beautiful . . . . and I see that what is not

        the earth is beautiful.

I go from bedside to bedside . . . . I sleep close with the

        other sleepers, each in turn;

I dream in my dream all the dreams of the other dreamers,

And I become the other dreamers.

I am a dance . . . . Play up there! the fit is whirling me fast.

I am the everlaughing . . . . it is new moon and twilight,

I see the hiding of douceurs . . . . I see nimble ghosts

        whichever way I look,

Cache and cache again deep in the ground and sea, and

        where it is neither ground or sea.

Well do they do their jobs, those journeymen divine,

Only from me can they hide nothing and would not if they

        could;

I reckon I am their boss, and they make me a pet besides,

And surround me, and lead me and run ahead when I walk,

And lift their cunning covers and signify me with stretched

        arms, and resume the way;

Onward we move, a gay gang of blackguards with

        mirthshouting music and wildflapping pennants of joy.

I am the actor and the actress . . . . the voter . . the

        politician,

The emigrant and the exile . . the criminal that stood in the

        box,

He who has been famous, and he who shall be famous after

        today,

The stammerer . . . . the wellformed person . . the wasted

        or feeble person.

I am she who adorned herself and folded her hair expectantly,

My truant lover has come and it is dark.

Double yourself and receive me darkness,

Receive me and my lover too . . . . he will not let me go

        without him.

I roll myself upon you as upon a bed . . . . I resign myself

        to the dusk.

He whom I call answers me and takes the place of my lover,

He rises with me silently from the bed.

Darkness you are gentler than my lover . . . . his flesh was

        sweaty and panting,

I feel the hot moisture yet that he left me.

My hands are spread forth . . I pass them in all directions,

I would sound up the shadowy shore to which you are

        journeying.

Be careful, darkness . . . . already, what was it touched me?

I thought my lover had gone . . . . else darkness and he

        are one,

I hear the heart-beat . . . . I follow . . I fade away.

O hotcheeked and blushing! O foolish hectic!

O for pity's sake, no one must see me now! . . . . my

        clothes were stolen while I was abed,

Now I am thrust forth, where shall I run?

Pier that I saw dimly last night when I looked from the

        windows,

Pier out from the main, let me catch myself with you and

        stay . . . . I will not chafe you;

I feel ashamed to go naked about the world,

And am curious to know where my feet stand . . . . and

        what is this flooding me, childhood or manhood . . . .

        and the hunger that crosses the bridge between.

The cloth laps a first sweet eating and drinking,

Laps life-swelling yolks . . . . laps ear of rose-corn, milky

        and just ripened:

The white teeth stay, and the boss-tooth advances in darkness,

And liquor is spilled on lips and bosoms by touching glasses,

        and the best liquor afterward.

I descend my western course . . . . my sinews are flaccid,

Perfume and youth course through me, and I am their wake.

It is my face yellow and wrinkled instead of the old woman's,

I sit low in a strawbottom chair and carefully darn my

        grandson's stockings.

It is I too . . . . the sleepless widow looking out on the

        winter midnight,

I see the sparkles of starshine on the icy and pallid earth.

A shroud I see -- and I am the shroud . . . . I wrap a body

        and lie in the coffin;

It is dark here underground . . . . it is not evil or pain here

        . . . . it is blank here, for reasons.

It seems to me that everything in the light and air ought to

        be happy;

Whoever is not in his coffin and the dark grave, let him

        know he has enough.

I see a beautiful gigantic swimmer swimming naked through

        the eddies of the sea,

His brown hair lies close and even to his head . . . . he

        strikes out with courageous arms . . . . he urges

        himself with his legs. 

I see his white body . . . . I see his undaunted eyes;

I hate the swift-running eddies that would dash him

        headforemost on the rocks.

What are you doing you ruffianly red-trickled waves?

Will you kill the courageous giant? Will you kill him in the

        prime of his middle age?

Steady and long he struggles;

He is baffled and banged and bruised . . . . he holds out

        while his strength holds out,

The slapping eddies are spotted with his blood . . . . they

        bear him away . . . . they roll him and swing him and

        turn him:

His beautiful body is borne in the circling eddies . . . . it is

        continually bruised on rocks,

Swiftly and out of sight is borne the brave corpse.

I turn but do not extricate myself;

Confused . . . . a pastreading . . . . another, but with

        darkness yet.

The beach is cut by the razory ice-wind . . . . the wreck-guns

        sound,

The tempest lulls and the moon comes floundering through

        the drifts.

I look where the ship helplessly heads end on . . . . I hear

        the burst as she strikes . . I hear the howls of dismay

        . . . . they grow fainter and fainter.

I cannot aid with my wringing fingers;

I can but rush to the surf and let it drench me and freeze

        upon me.

I search with the crowd . . . . not one of the company is

        washed to us alive;

In the morning I help pick up the dead and lay them in

        rows in a barn. 

Now of the old war-days . . the defeat at Brooklyn;

Washington stands inside the lines . . he stands on the

        entrenched hills amid a crowd of officers,

His face is cold and damp . . . . he cannot repress the

        weeping drops . . . . he lifts the glass perpetually to

        his eyes . . . . the color is blanched from his cheeks,

He sees the slaughter of the southern braves confided to him

        by their parents.

The same at last and at last when peace is declared,

He stands in the room of the old tavern . . . . the

        wellbeloved soldiers all pass through,

The officers speechless and slow draw near in their turns,

The chief encircles their necks with his arm and kisses them

        on the cheek,

He kisses lightly the wet cheeks one after another . . . . he

        shakes hands and bids goodbye to the army.

Now I tell what my mother told me today as we sat at

        dinner together,

Of when she was a nearly grown girl living home with her

        parents on the old homestead.

A red squaw came one breakfasttime to the old homestead,

On her back she carried a bundle of rushes for

        rushbottoming chairs;

Her hair straight shiny coarse black and profuse

        halfenveloped her face,

Her step was free and elastic . . . . her voice sounded

        exquisitely as she spoke.

My mother looked in delight and amazement at the stranger,

She looked at the beauty of her tallborne face and full and

        pliant limbs,

The more she looked upon her she loved her,

Never before had she seen such wonderful beauty and purity;

She made her sit on a bench by the jamb of the fireplace . . . .

        she cooked food for her,

She had no work to give her but she gave her remembrance

        and fondness.

The red squaw staid all the forenoon, and toward the middle

        of the afternoon she went away;

O my mother was loth to have her go away,

All the week she thought of her . . . . she watched for her

        many a month,

She remembered her many a winter and many a summer,

But the red squaw never came nor was heard of there again.

Now Lucifer was not dead . . . . or if he was I am his

        sorrowful terrible heir;

I have been wronged . . . . I am oppressed . . . . I hate

        him that oppresses me,

I will either destroy him, or he shall release me.

Damn him! how he does defile me,

How he informs against my brother and sister and takes pay

        for their blood,

How he laughs when I look down the bend after the

        steamboat that carries away my woman.

Now the vast dusk bulk that is the whale's bulk . . . . it

        seems mine,

Warily, sportsman! though I lie so sleepy and sluggish, my

        tap is death.

A show of the summer softness . . . . a contact of something

        unseen . . . . an amour of the light and air;

I am jealous and overwhelmed with friendliness,

And will go gallivant with the light and the air myself,

And have an unseen something to be in contact with them

        also.

O love and summer! you are in the dreams and in me,

Autumn and winter are in the dreams . . . . the farmer

        goes with his thrift,

The droves and crops increase . . . . the barns are wellfilled.

Elements merge in the night . . . . ships make tacks in the

        dreams . . . . the sailor sails . . . . the exile returns

        home,

The fugitive returns unharmed . . . . the immigrant is back

        beyond months and years;

The poor Irishman lives in the simple house of his childhood,

        with the wellknown neighbors and faces,

They warmly welcome him . . . . he is barefoot again . . . .

        he forgets he is welloff;

The Dutchman voyages home, and the Scotchman and

        Welchman voyage home . . and the native of the

        Mediterranean voyages home;

To every port of England and France and Spain enter

        wellfilled ships;

The Swiss foots it toward his hills . . . . the Prussian goes

        his way, and the Hungarian his way, and the Pole goes

        his way,

The Swede returns, and the Dane and Norwegian return.

The homeward bound and the outward bound,

The beautiful lost swimmer, the ennuyee, the onanist, the

        female that loves unrequited, the moneymaker,

The actor and actress . . those through with their parts and

        those waiting to commence,

The affectionate boy, the husband and wife, the voter, the

        nominee that is chosen and the nominee that has failed,

The great already known, and the great anytime after to day,

The stammerer, the sick, the perfectformed, the homely,

The criminal that stood in the box, the judge that sat and

        sentenced him, the fluent lawyers, the jury, the

        audience,

The laugher and weeper, the dancer, the midnight widow,

        the red squaw,

The consumptive, the erysipalite, the idiot, he that is

        wronged,

The antipodes, and every one between this and them in the

        dark,

I swear they are averaged now . . . . one is no better than

        the other,

The night and sleep have likened them and restored them. 

I swear they are all beautiful,

Every one that sleeps is beautiful . . . . every thing in the

        dim night is beautiful,

The wildest and bloodiest is over and all is peace.

Peace is always beautiful,

The myth of heaven indicates peace and night.

The myth of heaven indicates the soul;

The soul is always beautiful . . . . it appears more or it

        appears less . . . . it comes or lags behind,

It comes from its embowered garden and looks pleasantly on

        itself and encloses the world;

Perfect and clean the genitals previously jetting, and perfect

        and clean the womb cohering,

The head wellgrown and proportioned and plumb, and the

        bowels and joints proportioned and plumb.

The soul is always beautiful,

The universe is duly in order . . . . every thing is in its place,

What is arrived is in its place, and what waits is in its place;

The twisted skull waits . . . . the watery or rotten blood

        waits,

The child of the glutton or venerealee waits long, and the

        child of the drunkard waits long, and the drunkard

        himself waits long,

The sleepers that lived and died wait . . . . the far advanced

        are to go on in their turns, and the far behind are to go

        on in their turns,

The diverse shall be no less diverse, but they shall flow and

        unite . . . . they unite now.

The sleepers are very beautiful as they lie unclothed,

They flow hand in hand over the whole earth from east to

        west as they lie unclothed;

The Asiatic and African are hand in hand . . . . the

        European and American are hand in hand,

Learned and unlearned are hand in hand . . and male and

        female are hand in hand;

The bare arm of the girl crosses the bare breast of her lover

        . . . . they press close without lust . . . .

        his lips press her neck,

The father holds his grown or ungrown son in his arms with

        measureless love . . . . and the son holds the father in

        his arms with measureless love,

The white hair of the mother shines on the white wrist of

        the daughter,

The breath of the boy goes with the breath of the man . . . .

        friend is inarmed by friend,

The scholar kisses the teacher and the teacher kisses the

        scholar . . . . the wronged is made right,

The call of the slave is one with the master's call . . and the

        master salutes the slave,

The felon steps forth from the prison . . . . the insane

        becomes sane . . . . the suffering of sick persons is

        relieved,

The sweatings and fevers stop . . the throat that was

        unsound is sound . . the lungs of the consumptive are

        resumed . . the poor distressed head is free,

The joints of the rheumatic move as smoothly as ever, and

        smoother than ever,

Stiflings and passages open . . . . the paralysed become

        supple,

The swelled and convulsed and congested awake to themselves

        in condition,

They pass the invigoration of the night and the chemistry of

        the night and awake.

I too pass from the night;

I stay awhile away O night, but I return to you again and

        love you;

Why should I be afraid to trust myself to you?

I am not afraid . . . . I have been well brought forward

        by you;

I love the rich running day, but I do not desert her in whom

        I lay so long;

I know not how I came of you, and I know not where I go

        with you . . . . but I know I came well and shall go well. 

I will stop only a time with the night . . . . and rise betimes.

I will duly pass the day O my mother and duly return to you;

Not you will yield forth the dawn again more surely than

        you will yield forth me again,

Not the womb yields the babe in its time more surely than I

        shall be yielded from you in my time.

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