"THE SLEEPERS" (Final published version, as revised for the 1881 edition of Leaves of Grass)
THE SLEEPERS 1 I
wander all night in my vision, Stepping
with light feet, swiftly and noiselessly stepping and stopping, Bending
with open eyes over the shut eyes of sleepers, Wandering and confused, lost to myself, ill-assorted, contradictory, Pausing,
gazing, bending, and stopping. How
solemn they look there, stretch'd and still, How
quiet they breathe, the little children in their cradles. The
wretched features of ennuy‚s, the white features of corpses, the livid faces of drunkards,
the sick-gray faces of onanists, The
gash'd bodies on battle-fields, the insane in their strong-door'd rooms, the sacred idiots, the new-born
emerging from gates, and the dying emerging from
gates, The
night pervades them and infolds them. The
married couple sleep calmly in their bed, he with his palm on the hip of the wife, and she
with her palm on the hip of the husband, The
sisters sleep lovingly side by side in their bed, The
men sleep lovingly side by side in theirs, And
the mother sleeps with her little child carefully wrapt. The
blind sleep, and the deaf and dumb sleep, The
prisoner sleeps well in the prison, the runaway son sleeps, The
murderer that is to be hung next day, how does he sleep? And
the murder'd person, how does he sleep? The
female that loves unrequited sleeps, And
the male that loves unrequited sleeps, The
head of the money-maker that plotted all day sleeps, And
the enraged and treacherous dispositions, all, all sleep. I
stand in the dark with drooping eyes by the worst-suffering and the most restless, I
pass my hands soothingly to and fro a few inches from them, The
restless sink in their beds, they fitfully sleep. Now
I pierce the darkness, new beings appear, The
earth recedes from me into the night, I
saw that it was beautiful, and I see that what is not the earth is beautiful. I
go from bedside to bedside, I sleep close with the other sleepers each in turn, I
dream in my dream all the dreams of the other dreamers, And
I become the other dreamers. I
am a dance -- play up there! the fit is whirling me fast! I
am the ever-laughing -- it is new moon and twilight, I
see the hiding of douceurs, I see nimble ghosts whichever way I look, Cache
and cache again deep in the ground and sea, and where it is neither ground nor sea. Well
do they do their jobs those journeymen divine, Only
from me can they hide nothing, and would not if they could, I
reckon I am their boss and they make me a pet besides, And
surround me and lead me and run ahead when I walk, To
lift their cunning covers to signify me with stretch'd arms, and resume the way; Onward
we move, a gay gang of blackguards! with mirth-shouting music and wild-flapping pennants of joy!
I
am the actor, the actress, the voter, the politician, The
emigrant and the exile, the criminal that stood in the box, He
who has been famous and he who shall be famous after to-day, The
stammerer, the well-form'd person, the wasted or feeble person. I
am she who adorn'd herself and folded her hair expectantly, My
truant lover has come, and it is dark. Double
yourself and receive me darkness, Receive
me and my lover too, he will not let me go without him. I
roll myself upon you as upon a bed, I resign myself to the dusk. He
whom I call answers me and takes the place of my lover, He
rises with me silently from the bed. Darkness,
you are gentler than my lover, his flesh was sweaty and panting, I
feel the hot moisture yet that he left me. My
hands are spread forth, I pass them in all directions, I
would sound up the shadowy shore to which you are journeying. Be
careful darkness! already what was it touch'd me? I
thought my lover had gone, else darkness and he are one, I
hear the heart-beat, I follow, I fade away. 2 I
descend my western course, my sinews are flaccid, Perfume
and youth course through me and I am their wake. It
is my face yellow and wrinkled instead of the old woman's, I
sit low in a straw-bottom chair and carefully darn my grandson's stockings. It
is I too, the sleepless widow looking out on the winter midnight, I
see the sparkles of starshine on the icy and pallid earth. A
shroud I see and I am the shroud, I wrap a body and lie in the coffin, It
is dark here under ground, it is not evil or pain here, it is blank here, for reasons. (It
seems to me that every thing in the light and air ought to be happy, Whoever
is not in his coffin and the dark grave let him know he has enough.) 3 I
see a beautiful gigantic swimmer swimming naked through the eddies of the sea, His
brown hair lies close and even to his head, he strikes out with courageous arms, he urges himself
with his legs, I
see his white body, I see his undaunted eyes, I
hate the swift-running eddies that would dash him head-foremost on the rocks. What
are you doing you ruffianly red-trickled waves? Will
you kill the courageous giant? will you kill him in the prime of his middle age? Steady
and long he struggles, He
is baffled, bang'd, bruis'd, he holds out while his strength holds out, The
slapping eddies are spotted with his blood, they bear him away, they roll him, swing him, turn
him, His
beautiful body is borne in the circling eddies, it is continually bruis'd on rocks, Swiftly
and out of sight is borne the brave corpse. 4 I
turn but do not extricate myself, Confused,
a past-reading, another, but with darkness yet. The
beach is cut by the razory ice-wind, the wreck-guns sound, The
tempest lulls, the moon comes floundering through the drifts. I
look where the ship helplessly heads end on, I hear the burst as she strikes, I hear the howls
of dismay, they grow fainter and fainter. I
cannot aid with my wringing fingers, I
can but rush to the surf and let it drench me and freeze upon me. I
search with the crowd, not one of the company is wash'd to us alive, In
the morning I help pick up the dead and lay them in rows in a barn. 5 Now
of the older war-days, the defeat at Brooklyn, Washington
stands inside the lines, he stands on the intrench'd hills amid a crowd of officers,
His
face is cold and damp, he cannot repress the weeping drops, He
lifts the glass perpetually to his eyes, the color is blanch'd from his cheeks, He
sees the slaughter of the southern braves confided to him by their parents. The
same at last and at last when peace is declared, He
stands in the room of the old tavern, the well-belov'd soldiers all pass through, The
officers speechless and slow draw near in their turns, The
chief encircles their necks with his arm and kisses them on the cheek, He
kisses lightly the wet cheeks one after another, he shakes hands and bids good-by to the army. 6 Now
what my mother told me one day as we sat at dinner together, Of
when she was a nearly grown girl living home with her parents on the old homestead. A
red squaw came one breakfast-time to the old homestead, On
her back she carried a bundle of rushes for rush-bottoming chairs, Her
hair, straight, shiny, coarse, black, profuse, half-envelop'd her face, Her
step was free and elastic, and her voice sounded exquisitely as she spoke. My
mother look'd in delight and amazement at the stranger, She
look'd at the freshness of her tall-borne face and full and pliant limbs, The
more she look'd upon her she loved her, Never
before had she seen such wonderful beauty and purity, She
made her sit on a bench by the jamb of the fireplace, she cook'd food for her, She
had no work to give her, but she gave her remembrance and fondness. The
red squaw staid all the forenoon, and toward the middle of the afternoon she went away, O
my mother was loth to have her go away, All
the week she thought of her, she watch'd for her many a month, She
remember'd her many a winter and many a summer, But
the red squaw never came nor was heard of there again. 7 A
show of the summer softness -- a contact of something unseen -- an amour of the light and air, I
am jealous and overwhelm'd with friendliness, And
will go gallivant with the light and air myself. O
love and summer, you are in the dreams and in me, Autumn
and winter are in the dreams, the farmer goes with his thrift, The
droves and crops increase, the barns are well-fill'd. Elements
merge in the night, ships make tacks in the dreams, The
sailor sails, the exile returns home, The
fugitive returns unharm'd, the immigrant is back beyond months and years, The
poor Irishman lives in the simple house of his childhood with the well-known neighbors
and faces, They
warmly welcome him, he is barefoot again, he forgets he is well off, The
Dutchman voyages home, and the Scotchman and Welshman voyage home, and the native
of the Mediterranean voyages home, To
every port of England, France, Spain, enter well-fill'd ships, The
Swiss foots it toward his hills, the Prussian goes his way, the Hungarian his way, and the Pole
his way, The
Swede returns, and the Dane and Norwegian return. The
homeward bound and the outward bound, The
beautiful lost swimmer, the ennuy‚, the onanist, the female that loves unrequited, the money-maker, The
actor and actress, those through with their parts and those waiting to commence, The
affectionate boy, the husband and wife, the voter, the nominee that is chosen and the nominee
that has fail'd, The
great already known and the great any time after to-day, The
stammerer, the sick, the perfect-form'd, the homely, The
criminal that stood in the box, the judge that sat and sentenced him, the fluent lawyers, the
jury, the audience, The
laugher and weeper, the dancer, the midnight widow, the red squaw, The
consumptive, the erysipalite, the idiot, he that is wrong'd, The
antipodes, and every one between this and them in the dark, I
swear they are averaged now -- one is no better than the other, The
night and sleep have liken'd them and restored them. I
swear they are all beautiful, Every
one that sleeps is beautiful, every thing in the dim light is beautiful, The
wildest and bloodiest is over, and all is peace. Peace
is always beautiful, The
myth of heaven indicates peace and night. The
myth of heaven indicates the soul, The
soul is always beautiful, it appears more or it appears less, it comes or it lags behind, It
comes from its embower'd garden and looks pleasantly on itself and encloses the world, Perfect
and clean the genitals previously jetting, and perfect and clean the womb cohering, The
head well-grown proportion'd and plumb, and the bowels and joints proportion'd and plumb.
The
soul is always beautiful, The
universe is duly in order, every thing is in its place, What
has arrived is in its place and what waits shall be in its place, The
twisted skull waits, the watery or rotten blood waits, The
child of the glutton or venerealee waits long, and the child of the drunkard waits long, and
the drunkard himself waits long, The
sleepers that lived and died wait, the far advanced are to go on in their turns, and the far behind
are to come on in their turns, The
diverse shall be no less diverse, but they shall flow and unite -- they unite now. 8 The
sleepers are very beautiful as they lie unclothed, They
flow hand in hand over the whole earth from east to west as they lie unclothed, The
Asiatic and African are hand in hand, the European and American are hand in hand, Learn'd
and unlearn'd are hand in hand, and male and female are hand in hand, The
bare arm of the girl crosses the bare breast of her lover, they press close without lust, his lips
press her neck, The
father holds his grown or ungrown son in his arms with measureless love, and the son holds the
father in his arms with measureless love, The
white hair of the mother shines on the white wrist of the daughter, The
breath of the boy goes with the breath of the man, friend is inarm'd by friend, The
scholar kisses the teacher and the teacher kisses the scholar, the wrong'd is made right, The
call of the slave is one with the master's call, and the master salutes the slave, The
felon steps forth from the prison, the insane becomes sane, the suffering of sick persons is
reliev'd, The
sweatings and fevers stop, the throat that was unsound is sound, the lungs of the consumptive
are resumed, the poor distress'd head is free, The
joints of the rheumatic move as smoothly as ever, and smoother than ever, Stiflings
and passages open, the paralyzed become supple, The
swell'd and convuls'd and congested awake to themselves in condition, They
pass the invigoration of the night and the chemistry of the night, and awake. I
too pass from the night, I
stay a while away O night, but I return to you again and love you. Why
should I be afraid to trust myself to you? I
am not afraid, I have been well brought forward by you, I
love the rich running day, but I do not desert her in whom I lay so long, I
know not how I came of you and I know not where I go with you, but I know I came well and
shall go well. I
will stop only a time with the night, and rise betimes, I
will duly pass the day O my mother, and duly return to you. |